Mum, friends, life's Angels

During my life there have been hard times, fear, lost,alone, so alone that some people just could never imagine, times of desperation, deep in depression, violated, abused physically and mentally, sexually, post traumatic stress, bald due to alapchea, I think I've spelt it right....lol and on and on

Don't think ohhh here comes the sob story, let me finish.

At these times in my life, angels! In the form of people have entered my life, helped me live and helped me survive, words would never be enough to explain the kindness and goodness that these people gave to me in my time of need.

However I would like  to say, to my own shame at some point later in life , I let these people, my angels down.

I find it ironic that when my angels needed it, I could not be there for them as I am only human and circumstances would not permit it.

Imagine having your sick child having brain scans in a room and one of your angels in the same hospital down the corridor , your already as a mother at breaking point.............

But something I have done in their name is carried on the kindness and goodness that they gave me and helped others in their time of great need.

I would like to think that they are aware of this and with their understanding of my life, forgive me