Night time thoughts

Life is such a maze of twists and turns and dead ends, when I was in my twenties and trying for children, there was a period of time that I truly believed I would never have a child of my own, I think this is the cruelest kind of torture for any woman and I know that after some years when I was still not pregnant I questioned my own womanhood and truly believed that I was not a true woman as the difference between men and woman was that women  carried children and men didn't, so what sort of woman was I, and yes I can understand a woman desperate for a child, stealing one in a moment of desperation